i really need to go move around about now, but instead i'm sitting on the couch with brewster next to me and america trying to get me to buy a car. is this going to happen when i'm 30 too? will 15 year-old girls still try to be 25? will the economy still be terrible?

everyone's dog in provo has a sweater. it reminds me of being little and having schnapps. that dog looked old from the moment he was born. i could never figure out what his name meant until i was about eight, and then i would giggle everytime i said it. i guess i miss having that dog around a little bit. he never did much, and he would let austin and i put clothes on him. marley just bites and cries and does all the things a human baby couldn't ever get away with. it would be okay, except she isn't even cute. isn't that the reward for having a puppy? nevermind that you ate my moccasins and peed on my bed, i like squeezing your face.

today a lady came in and talked to me at work for a good twenty minutes. those people are always so funny. she kept talking about how, yes, she HAD been at Haight-Ashbury. it came up about 5 times in our conversation, along with 'yeah, i just got stitches out of my eyes' (and then a pause where she took her sunglasses off to show me her yellow and blue skin). i felt like i knew this lady after she left. it was depressing in a way; i was probably the person she talked to most that day. all she wanted was a peace sign necklace, but she left with three things and a new friend. i maybe should make it a point to really talk to a sales clerk once. maybe i should show them pictures of MY family. it's funny to know that i won't be at mervyn's two weeks from now, since i've been trying to quit for so long. i guess i'll have to find a new lady that looks like don knotts, and a new hari khrisna girl to try and make sense of.

"well, i know she says a-s-s a lot, but i don't think she's ever learned anything worse than that."
"i've heard worse, jeena."
"really, like what?"
"like 'i'm gonna play the effing drums, and no one is ever going to stop me, not even my mom."
"OHH?"
-jeena and i talking about her daughter syvanah