i am not the problem, solution, OR conversation, yet i'm the one left dodging bullets. i am not angry, i am just stunned, and hurt. my intentions were never murky, they were crystal clear. i didn't intend to make anyone angry. i am just left living my life, which is the best i can do. today i officially became one of the unemployed too. give it a few weeks, and it will be a much more desperate thing. as for now, i think i feel okay about it. i still haven't pierced my nose, or permed my hair, but i've taken up an interest in rings.

the snow is beautiful these days. funny thing, it was disgusting last year. i never wanted it, and now i soak in every minute. yesterday we walked to the park in a half-blizzard and made a mess of the new snow. what a good feeling. God is good.