it's getting to be the weather that i can't fall asleep without a fan in. except, the fan is more for the sound than for the temperature, so it really doesn't make sense. anyways. it is on right now and it is too cold, but at least relaxing

i ended up half by accident and half by on purpose getting all of the next seven days off, except for a short training for work on tuesday. i am so excited to spend time outdoors and with friends i don't really get to see often. i think i am going to go and help collin and tony with painting their new little apartment.

also, a cool thing that summer has done for me: no more flying anxiety. on friday we went up to the ogden airport so mikey could shoot us all in nick's summer line. frank took us up in his plane and let philip fly for half of it. i didn't realize how cool being so high up really is. i kept pointing out the window for joseph to look at all of the tiny cars and houses. it sort of feels like playing the sims. except for none of the characters caught anything on fire, so that was sort of ideal.


all in all, it's been a weird few days. i found out that my grandma is in the hospital again and feeling worse. my mom is going to catch a red eye out there on friday and stay hopefully for around 3 weeks. i will go out a few days after she gets home to go help with whatever my grandma needs. it is sobering to see that she is getting old and i am scared to see her weak when i'm used to someone so strong and stubborn. i don't know if i am ready for it, but i wish i could stay out there longer nonetheless. keep her in your prayers.