"he is a gentleman, a policeman. i want him around when it is nighttime. the other one is useless and scares me to debt"

this is what the little indian boy i babysat tonight said to me in his cute accent (regarding our dogs). i don't really know how it happened, but there he was at my house, and spencer had disappeared somewhere with matt. i am not around little kids that aren't spencer very often so i have to retrain myself on how to act around them. mainly it involves listening to very long-winded stories. at least he had very good grammar, though.

two weeks. then nine days. then twelve. i am counting my summer in overlaps and other states.

I forgot how good it felt to play music. To sing harmonies, to feel the pressure of guitar strings indenting your fingers. I am so grateful to be reminded of this tonight. I can't wait to see what this kickstarts when I go back to my other home with my other bed.

It is weird to have two houses to live in that both feel like home.

it's getting to be the weather that i can't fall asleep without a fan in. except, the fan is more for the sound than for the temperature, so it really doesn't make sense. anyways. it is on right now and it is too cold, but at least relaxing

i ended up half by accident and half by on purpose getting all of the next seven days off, except for a short training for work on tuesday. i am so excited to spend time outdoors and with friends i don't really get to see often. i think i am going to go and help collin and tony with painting their new little apartment.

also, a cool thing that summer has done for me: no more flying anxiety. on friday we went up to the ogden airport so mikey could shoot us all in nick's summer line. frank took us up in his plane and let philip fly for half of it. i didn't realize how cool being so high up really is. i kept pointing out the window for joseph to look at all of the tiny cars and houses. it sort of feels like playing the sims. except for none of the characters caught anything on fire, so that was sort of ideal.


all in all, it's been a weird few days. i found out that my grandma is in the hospital again and feeling worse. my mom is going to catch a red eye out there on friday and stay hopefully for around 3 weeks. i will go out a few days after she gets home to go help with whatever my grandma needs. it is sobering to see that she is getting old and i am scared to see her weak when i'm used to someone so strong and stubborn. i don't know if i am ready for it, but i wish i could stay out there longer nonetheless. keep her in your prayers.

I have this thing of where I am going to write down the little things that Mikey or Nick say in a conversation, but I can't really capture the face they are making, which is what says it all. It is like they will burst if they hold it all in. I always forget how funny it is to experience.

I found out this weekend that one of my friends knows my Uncle Wayne, which is crazy because he is from another state and just happens to always stay in his hotel when he works from the road. My uncle is the good kind of Southern gentleman that I think everyone needs in their life. He is a cowboy all of the way through, but he is also short so it somehow seems to balance out alright. He has a good heart and makes me want to spend more time in the country.

What else, besides work. Philip and I accidentally ended up all over downtown searching for my brother to visit with, but he led us to the wrong part of the valley (kid obviously grew up driving in Provo only). Instead we just spent a lot of time using public transportation, and various iphone apps. Who knew it would come in handy, ever? Also, we found some neat treasures at the DI. I wish I could be a better DI-er, but I just don't have the time or the patience anymore.

My thoughts are all over the place, and probably because I am just really tired. I can't shake this bummed out mood, for three days now. My heart is heavy. Tonight was refreshing, being able to just relax and spend time laughing with friends like I haven't laughed for awhile. Tomorrow is my day off and I am excited to spend some extra time with God.



Also:
I am going to let Frank take me up in his plane on Friday, and I will probably spend the next two days getting nervous about it.