one day i will wake up and i won't be 16 anymore, and i'll wonder where the time went and then turn the music up louder. I'll be playing guitar, but i won't hear it.

sometimes i want that day to be tomorrow. I'm tired of too much thinking and long days. I want to just scream until i can breathe like normal again. I want to walk through the leaves with someone i care about. I'm so tired. I want to live like it's 3 am and we're talking about nothing that really means everything. right now i guess i'll settle for purple hair, tea and brokenness. I'll try to break 100 again in bowling,and listen to the same music because it is easy.

I feel like a chain smoker in the fact that habit is so comforting, sometimes.